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better days
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here recently, i've been through alot of stress with school and work and lain and bills.... you get the picture.... but things are starting to look up. 
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rollercoaster ride
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Things have been all over the palce lately. Almost everything you can realisticly think of has, or almost has, happened. Damned Drama! where's my little bit of peace and sanity? 
even RX sanity would be kind. 
oh well... all things work out for the better in the end.
even RX sanity would be kind. oh well... all things work out for the better in the end.
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Sigh - it's been a bad boy day.
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I just want to scream and toss in the towel on Lain and me. Sometimes it fells like there's just no more hope for us. I deel so defeated. I know i'm, seeing the beginning of the end, but i can't just give up - it's not in me to give up. 
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Goodbye to my dearest Liz
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LIZ... i don't know how to let you go.
San Francisco is half the country away. But like i said last night, i know you've been through some tuff shit in the 7 years that i've known you, and good things come to those who deserve them. And there is no doubt that you have paid your dues on that one.
Last night when we were on the patio, i wanted to tell you almost everything that you had said to me... you have taught me that i deserve the best, not to settle, not to just keep my head down and mouth shut, that i can say no and it will be ok, stand tall, be proud of who you are. Well, i guess you helped drive those lessons home, made them real. I can sit here and give advice all day, but seeing you take them to heart helped make me realize that i should practice what i preach... and , well bloody hell, it works for me too:!: who wudda thunk?
I was tellin you the truth when i said that i don't know if i would make it in this city w/o my Liz. You have been such an influential part of my life, and in my writing as well. Who the hell am i going to go to and have chilly chz rolls and chipotly (sp?) with and watch a romantic comedy w/ when we're haveing "one of those days"? who am i going to have some of the most important conversations w/ over
at the bux when you're in Cali? huh? Who the hell am i going to go to the gay bars and 
with?
You have been there for me in one of the toughest times of my life. Thank You for not turning you back on me.
I am sorry that we didn't get to know each other better in high school.... stupid damned bitch, what did she think she was accoplishing when she kept us appart?
I dunno. I am so glad that we happened to take the same writing class last year that threw us back into each other's lives. It was probably one of the best choices i made that year.
Liz, i love you. 
I know you'll love it in San Francisco. I'll need to come see you over xmas. 
and you have to come see me hell... over spring break or something, i've got some things in mind that we could do down on 6th street... 
I know that San Fancisco is lucky to have you.
give them a hell of a time. Get political, get active. people listen to you when you speek - use it the best way possible:!: I love you! -- Natalie --
San Francisco is half the country away. But like i said last night, i know you've been through some tuff shit in the 7 years that i've known you, and good things come to those who deserve them. And there is no doubt that you have paid your dues on that one. Last night when we were on the patio, i wanted to tell you almost everything that you had said to me... you have taught me that i deserve the best, not to settle, not to just keep my head down and mouth shut, that i can say no and it will be ok, stand tall, be proud of who you are. Well, i guess you helped drive those lessons home, made them real. I can sit here and give advice all day, but seeing you take them to heart helped make me realize that i should practice what i preach... and , well bloody hell, it works for me too:!: who wudda thunk?
I was tellin you the truth when i said that i don't know if i would make it in this city w/o my Liz. You have been such an influential part of my life, and in my writing as well. Who the hell am i going to go to and have chilly chz rolls and chipotly (sp?) with and watch a romantic comedy w/ when we're haveing "one of those days"? who am i going to have some of the most important conversations w/ over
at the bux when you're in Cali? huh? Who the hell am i going to go to the gay bars and with?You have been there for me in one of the toughest times of my life. Thank You for not turning you back on me.
I am sorry that we didn't get to know each other better in high school.... stupid damned bitch, what did she think she was accoplishing when she kept us appart?
I dunno. I am so glad that we happened to take the same writing class last year that threw us back into each other's lives. It was probably one of the best choices i made that year. Liz, i love you. I know you'll love it in San Francisco. I'll need to come see you over xmas. and you have to come see me hell... over spring break or something, i've got some things in mind that we could do down on 6th street... I know that San Fancisco is lucky to have you.
give them a hell of a time. Get political, get active. people listen to you when you speek - use it the best way possible:!: I love you! -- Natalie --
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Girl at Mojo's
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Hey... yeah, i know, it was a bit childish to leave you a damn note w/o saying anything to you, but 1 - you were there consoling a friend who needed you and 2 - i was just too chicken shit to say something. but oh-the-well. The truth is, i would like to know you - the real you. not just the girl that people know and see on an everyday basis - or the girl they think is you... but the girl behind closed doors - the girl, for now, only you know.
see, i had someone that i knew better than anyone. we had a great relationship, but she moved half the country away to a little town north of Chicago, Evanston, IL - home to the fighting wildcats of NorthWestern University. And that was the end of that.
I'm sorry for over-hearing your conversation w/ your friend that afternoon at mojo's... but i think everyone needs atleast one person that they can drop all masks to and still be comfortable with. When i heard what you had said about your last relationship and what you want for a good relationship - i wanted to say "get out of my head". that day i was having issues w/ my other half and was ready to just explode.
okl, i have to jump off the comp now... but i hope to see ya soon at mojo's again. drop me a not if you like. It would be grreat to see you again. -- N --
see, i had someone that i knew better than anyone. we had a great relationship, but she moved half the country away to a little town north of Chicago, Evanston, IL - home to the fighting wildcats of NorthWestern University. And that was the end of that.
I'm sorry for over-hearing your conversation w/ your friend that afternoon at mojo's... but i think everyone needs atleast one person that they can drop all masks to and still be comfortable with. When i heard what you had said about your last relationship and what you want for a good relationship - i wanted to say "get out of my head". that day i was having issues w/ my other half and was ready to just explode.
okl, i have to jump off the comp now... but i hope to see ya soon at mojo's again. drop me a not if you like. It would be grreat to see you again. -- N --
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